I know Father’s Day was this past weekend and this is a little late, but I still wanted to get it out there nonetheless. It can be a touchy topic for a lot of people, me included. I feel like I had a pretty good relationship with my father, and I hope that I can be that and so much more for my own kids.
Now I would be messing up if I didn’t take this back to before I had kids or had even met my wife. My own father passed away 13 years ago this year. It’s easy to say that’s been quite a while and well long enough to have gotten used to it, but that doesn’t make it any better or easier. After my father passed I pretty much didn’t want kids anymore.
The thought of raising a child or children without my biggest influence here with me just didn’t feel like something I wanted to do. It was either that or I wanted to raise a child on my own. I know now that both of those ideas are absolutely crazy. I’m not saying that it is crazy to raise children on your own, but to want to without really any reason. Thankfully though my amazing wife gave me a huge change of heart on a lot of things, this being one of them.
Like most people (I feel) would say, that first moment when your child comes into this world is the most dreamlike but real thing you ever feel. You spend roughly nine months waiting to meet this person, barely get an understanding of what to expect (realistically), and when that moment happens there just are no words to describe it.
It’s been nearly 8 years since my daughter, my first child, was born and every day when I hug her (to me) it feels like the day she was born. My son is the same way but obviously different. It’s different because they are different, but it isn’t different in the way I feel about them.
I’m not claiming to be the best father in the world by any means. All I know to do is love my children more than anything in the world and try to teach them life lessons the best way I know how. I do however feel like I am a good father though. The reason I feel that is because I never feel like I’m doing good enough. That may not make much sense but I believe to be the best father I can be I have to keep feeling like there is more that I can do. To think that I’m the perfect father with absolutely no flaws would be pompous and wrong. I feel like the moment you think you’re the best, you stop trying to be better.
So aside from my wife, my kids are the most precious thing on the planet to me. I do believe that all kids are precious, but obviously mine are more so to me. I would do anything in the world that I need to for my family as I would hope anyone would.